Update: it is now about 12 and 1/2 hours until my paper is due and I still haven't officially started writing yet. (I have an outline and a ton of research and ideas, but no beginning)
Stress is a killer. Things have been very stressful for me just lately. Not only have I been subject to the numerous and extremely lengthy assignments (ex: the paper mentioned above) that come with being a senior, but also: have begun planning my wedding (to Young Stan), preparing for student teaching, registering for classes for spring AND summer, and planning summer camp. I feel like there's always something I need to be doing and I'm starting to get my constant headache back.
I've decided that I don't like watching other people's pets for them while they get the privilege of going out of town and having some fun. I like to sleep in MY bed and now that my dog lives with me and needs medication every 12 hours, staying at another person's house is extremely inconvenient for me. Also: I like to go out of town and have fun... it's been a while.
I love to learn but sometimes my love of learning is killed by dumb assignments. Once, in one of my classes, the professor began a discussion comparing the United States to other nations in terms of the value placed on education. He said that on the whole other nations value education more and his evidence for this was foreign students in his various classes that try harder and have greater enthusiasm for class than his lazy-ass, worn out American students. Not to negate that Americans have a seemingly well-deserved reputation for being lazy, but I am beyond worn out and find myself growing increasingly frustrated with my "wonderful" education. I recognize the value of gaining an education and am very grateful for the opportunity to be learning all I'm learning. At the same time, however, I need to be working and studying and having a life (so I don't go insane), all of which does not allow much time for my work ethic and enthusiasm to bounce back very high. Also: I am tired of being undervalued as a student. Is my tuition money the only reason my university wants me to attend? I don't seriously believe that they want me to better myself. And I'm tired. It's been a long time since I've gotten a break and I often forgo sleep in order to get some "very important" thing done. So please forgive me for not jumping out of bed in the morning with a big beaming smile on my face, ready for a new day of classes with professors, that many times do not appear to take their jobs seriously.
I have had awesome classes that excite me and really inspire me to learn more and are taught by awesome professors with enthusiasm for their topic and obvious concern for their students (while still demanding excellence)... but sadly, those classes have been few and far between (especially at Eastern).
That said, I'm ready to finish this LONG ride that has been my college career. I guess the first step to doing that from here is finishing my economics paper...